we both knew

in this game there is no winner 

we knew it beforehand.

we'd be losing.

at least one of us played fair 

and came so far

to be honest, i could not asked for more

maybe for more time

togehter 

surely

certainly

one day this suffering will come to an end.

Angel of death comes for all of us

doubtless.

I am totally destroyed inside

anybody can't fix me -

Not even I.

sometimes when I don't feel like talking at all - 

I walk to the sea and sit quietly 

in front of the big blue

I don't say a word, but I feel

fully understood.

I know I must let go -

But tell me how.

/ way too heavy. 

never understood why people are so afraid of death

I do not scare

perhaps it's because I have nothing to lose.

/ the answer

when your life feels like a cage

without holes to breathe

you dig with your bare hands to find an exit

you search the entire time to get out and be free

to find an entry for a new life

/ ride or die trying

you get what you think 

I have lost my way. I am on the wrong path.

Seems a dead end.