Life is not a romantic comedy movie with an happy ending where that pretty damn hot guy fall in love with the girl next door.

/ Yes life is unfair and brutal.

I am tired 

Fighting back 

the demons in my head 

All the time 

I can't stand myself

how can anyone else do it?

It's obvious that you can't see clear

When your eyes filled with tears.

/ mist.

new ways to find you

new ways to get to you

we both knew

in this game there is no winner 

we knew it beforehand.

we'd be losing.

at least one of us played fair 

and came so far

to be honest, i could not asked for more

maybe for more time

togehter 

surely

certainly

one day this suffering will come to an end.

Angel of death comes for all of us

doubtless.

I am totally destroyed inside

anybody can't fix me -

Not even I.

sometimes when I don't feel like talking at all - 

I walk to the sea and sit quietly 

in front of the big blue

I don't say a word, but I feel

fully understood.

I know I must let go -

But tell me how.

/ way too heavy.