#idonotheal

As I want to speak, you don't. When you want to, I can't. In my Mind, The Words i wanna say are hidden In the darkest corner. You want to wait until we get sober. You don't want to talk while we 're drunk. Alright, Listen to my wild heart. while the stars are sparkling in a dead night. I spread my wings but I know I can not fly. Don't you wanna Join me here while I cry? You don't understand what I try to tell. Hell, no. You want to stay high. Burn emotions all away. It's Less hope for us each day.

                                  - duygu tutku göksu

Letters contain goodbyes

Spotlight on your lies. Here we go again. start all new. You'd broke my heart so many times. But here I stand, my feet don't move. I'm kinda magnetic to you. I forget all the letters contain goodbyes. Letters I wrote for you. Goodbyes I reneged.

- duygu tutku göksu

Flawless

Whistle back your demons,
I'm done fighting against you.
Sick of your poker face.
Lay down your mask Beside the bed,
where your scent Still lingers in the Sheets from the last night.
You don't need to play.
Hush, I get rid of your lies.
We 're not flawless.
Hungry for secureness.
Vulnerable.
Longing to beloved.
Before I sink
I leave. 

- duygu tutku göksu

#148

Sag nichts, ich höre deine Gedanken. Du bist voller Zweifel. 

Ich sehe deinen Blick. 

Du stehst vor mir doch deine Seele ist schon längst gegangen von hier. 

Von mir. 

Wir halten uns fest. 

Ängstlich. 

Wenn wir loslassen. werden wir auseinander treiben. 

Und uns verlieren. 

Für immer.

       - duygu tutku göksu

#147

das mädchen ist so kaputt

ihr herz hat verlernt zu schlagen

          - duygu tutku göksu

last words are meaningful.

some nights I sit in my room. And search for the meaning why we exist. I feel so small and empty. Wish you could convince me "you' re not senseless!" It's too late, you're Gone and I already lost myself in the mess.
I'm painting the walls over and over again to erase your scent. I'm dealing wih this far too long. I'm letting you go. Giving up on you now. I'm just leaving the memories behind. I'm just leaving this place to get you outta my mind.
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                                       .                       -D

Taste love.

'I will never buy you flowers.'
But I fell in love with you and don't care.
And I will blow your doubts away.
You're enough for me. Please stay I beg.
I can't wait for the day you'll Destroy me.
Come inside my soul. Let us catch fire.
Together. Right now.
you're sparkling through the night.
You tell me: 'Darkness is my home.'
I don't want to fight.
You want to be on your own.
I get it, 'Leave me alone.'
I taste the bitterness of your heart.

                                                     .    - D

#143

oh my love

you fool me anyway

i dont need to fight back

i will walk into your trap

always, everyday

         -D

what's the matter with you?

warum verhalten menschen sich so dumm? 

hören sich lügen an. ertragen schmerzen. lassen sich bewusst in die dunklen tiefen treiben. 

vielleicht ist es auch gar keine dummheit. vielleicht ist es hoffnung. 

weil sie wünschen, dass es gut endet. irgendwann. 

weil sie die hoffnung nicht verlieren wollen. um voran zu kommen. und weiter zu leben. 

vielleicht ist es der glaube an die liebe und keine dummheit. 

vielleicht nenn ich es kämpfen und opfer bringen während du dich fragst ob ich stolz besitze. 

manchmal ist wahre größe versteckt hinter den tränen. 

und unsichtbar für diejenigen die ein unechtes herz tragen.

xo